Social Butterfly

There is nothing better than good times spent with friends. Tonight we went to dinner with Ryan, Brittany, and their hilarious and adorable daughter (who turns 1 tomorrow!). And it was so nice to reconnect, and just have a good time. The only friends we really see often are Shauna and David. Not that we don’t have others, but those are the two we see the most, followed by Misty and Renee (when at Shauna and David’s lol).

I used to always be with friends. At one of our homes, hanging out, or out to eat (or the bar, 21+, but not drinking alcohol really). It was a fun time for me. I like being with people and chatting. It is something that makes me happy. So it’s not especially fun when we’re not with friends or we go a period of time not seeing any.

I’m the more social of the two of us. I think Kalen would be perfectly happy to never have to socialize. Unfortunately for HIM, he married a person who craves socializing, so he has to do it, by default. ;)

Saturday we’ll have Abby’s birthday party and then afterwards we’ll most likely go to see Sammi and possibly Tim, if he’s not working. She’s off all weekend-yay!!! It was so nice to have everyone at my Bachelorette/Bachelor party that my sister surprised us with (that I forgot to mention in the last post), and now I wish Kalen and I had the ability to host everyone and have cookouts, bonfires, and game nights often. Oh how happy I’ll be when that day finally comes!

We’re still playing catch-up on all our TV shows. It’s funny just how many we watch and I didn’t realize it. Or sad, depending on how you look at it. I wish we could cut down, and I know we technically could, but there are just so many that we both enjoy together and on our own. So, it’s hard to cut down on them, when we find them all so interesting. Right now we’re catching up on The Americans together, and I’m catching up on Reign (which had the “orchestra” or band or whatever playing Lorde’s song, whatever the first single was, at a dance….because it was a huge hit around the time of Mary Queen of Scots and all).

Are you like me, and crave socializing, or like Kalen?

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The End of May and the Beginning of Summer

Ah, friends, I’ve been gone far too long! Do I have excuses? You betcha! Wedding, school, and vacation. Are they acceptable? No. I’m not trying to find some crazy blog fame, but I do enjoy the relationship I’ve developed with other bloggers through commenting and interactions, and I’d like to develop those with readers of my blog. My last real entry was in March. How crazy! I did a wedding picture post, but that was it. So, I offer my apologies. I cannot expect this little blog to grow if I’m always absent from it.

On that note, let’s catch up! A lot has happened over here, namely a wedding! I am really thrilled to call Kalen my husband, and I am just so thankful for every single day spent with him. He’s so good to me, and for me. I dated a LOT of losers before him, and now I have the best guy ever, in my eyes. He’s good to my family and friends too, which is hugely important. Past boyfriends were not. They were selfish and treated me like dirt. I’m so glad I have Kalen. Plus, I think he’s pretty sexy. You can disagree, I won’t mind.

The semester ended, thankfully. I was sick through most of it, which landed me a C in one class due to having been sick and missing two of the classes (it met once a week, we had a test each week and did two labs, so I missed two days of all that…yay), but I had A’s (high A’s too!) in my three other classes. I would have had a B in the other class had I not missed. I really enjoyed it though, and if it came to it and I had to retake it, I’d definitely take it with the same professor. She was just the greatest!

The day after Mother’s Day Kalen and I drove straight through to Texas. Fifteen hours of sitting in a car (minus bathroom breaks), driving. The best part? Oh, the 7 hours of a severe storm we had to drive through! Yeah, that was a real thrill. Kalen, bless, drove the entire way because we stupidly got McDonald’s for breakfast. My ailing stomach cannot handle such foods and I was sick. I was actually sick most of the time there. I think a large part was that we ate out a lot. It takes me awhile to recover from such things. Stupid innards. It was fun though. Like I said, we ate out a lot. We went to the Scarborough Renaissance Faire, went shopping, and swam. While we were there, swimming, it was snowing back home (just one day, but still!). It’s so nice down there. But, it got hot at the end and our room was really warm. I told Kalen I’m bringing my floor fan next time LOL.

Now we’re home, and just relaxing. He has work, of course, but neither of us have school. We’ve been catching up on TV shows, and I went through some clothes that I needed to organize. I have far more clothes than I need, so I don’t quite have the room necessary for them. I also need to organize my makeup area (need a bigger area…haha), and go through other things just to purge stuff.

A big thing I’m going to do this summer is make more jewelry! I sold a pair of earrings the other day, and the buyer FINALLY left a review! No one has bothered before (which I think is kind of rude). I want reviews so I can make my shop as best as possible. I can’t do that if no one leaves one lol. I did set up a Facebook page too, so that friends can buy directly from me if they aren’t fans of Etsy. I’d love to be able to have this shop take off and do well. I enjoy making the things.

And now, it’s time to go to dinner with Brittany and Ryan (and Abby!). Summer is off to a good start.

I Did, I Do, & I Always Will

So, I am officially a wife!!! I’ll be honest, it doesn’t feel much different. I mean, we live together, with his Mom. If we had our own place, it might be different. I guess we’ll find out when that day comes!

I wanted to share some pictures though, the few that I have! The photographer took beautiful pictures!

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And quite frankly, so did everyone else!!!

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Fun fact: The cross necklace I’m wearing contains my Gma’s ashes. The ring was the ring my Dad gave to my Mom. So, in a way, they were both there. ♥

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Whew! I’m sorry dear friends, for being QUITE neglectful of this little corner of the blogisphere! I guess the time got away from me.

Today happens to be the two-year anniversary of my dear Gma’s death. Not a day goes by that I don’t miss her desperately. Today also happens to be the day that my Aunt Elsie flew into town for my wedding! We picked her up at the airport this morning (well, her flight landed at 11:45) and then I spent the day over there. I’m so happy she’s here. Like, beyond happy.

Tomorrow is the rehearsal for my wedding. EEP! I cannot believe that the day is almost here, or how dang fast it went by! It seems like just yesterday I was in the hospital, and Kalen was finding out he even got the job. Then we decided to go to the courthouse so I’d be insured. Well, the courthouse turned into a full blown ceremony, and here we are! Everything fell wonderfully into place.

Tomorrow will be spent getting manicures and pedicures, rehearsing, and then having dinner afterwards. And Saturday is when all my dreams come true. ♥

I’ll be sure to share pictures once I have some, and fill you all in on the big day. I’m so stinking excited! To be marrying my best friend, soul mate, and God’s gift to me…I’m so blessed.



Hard Times & Keeping Our Faith


Recently, I’ve been reading through the book of Job. Poor Job, who was basically tormented so God could prove he was faithful.

How many of us can say that we’d have remained as faithful as Job in that situation? If our livelihood and families were decimated, would we still remain faithful to the Lord?

I’d like to say that I would, but until I’ve been put in that situation (and I pray I never am!), how can I know for sure? How can I know that I won’t turn my back on my Heavenly Father?

I can’t, because only the Lord knows how faithful I’ll remain, and only he can help me keep my faith.

There are so many verses in Job that are just so…inspirational, and I’m only thirteen chapters in! I’m doing a nice and slow reading plan for the year, which is going at a much happier pace than the ninety-day plan I did two years ago. It’s been incredibly refreshing to read Job. When I was fourteen and my father passed away, it was hard for me to accept that this was God’s will. I had a hard time wrapping my head around the fact that he took my father from me, but murderers were still living. It wasn’t easy, but I realized that it wasn’t done to spite me. It was just his time. I don’t know how I’d have turned out if my Dad had lived. I’m almost twenty-nine now, and for the most part, I like how I am. I have areas to work on, but don’t we all? But, if my Dad were here, would I like more areas, or less? Would I be totally different?

So, I thought I’d share a few of the verses that I wrote down in the notebook where I’m keeping track of the verses that “speak to me.” It’s been refreshing, to do that, to read daily, and to write my prayers down daily. If you find you are having problems praying, try journaling your prayers. It’s been wonderful for me.

“He does great things too marvelous to understand. He performs countless miracles.” -Job 5:9

“But consider the joy of those corrected by God! Do not despise the discipline of the Almighty when you sin.” -Job 5:17

“At least I can take comfort in this: Despite the pain, I have no denied the words of the Holy One.” -Job 6:10

“But if you pray to God and seek the favor of the Almighty, and if you are pure and live with integrity, he will surely rise up and restore your happy home.” -Job 8:5-6

“Should I remain silent while you babble on? When you mock God, shouldn’t someone make you ashamed?” -Job 11:3

“If only you would prepare your heart and lift up your hands to him in prayer! Get rid of your sins, and leave all iniquity behind you. Then your face will brighten with innocence. You will be strong and free of fear.” -Job 11:13-15

Are there any verses from Job that inspire you? I have plenty more written down, but I didn’t want to post them all. I hope this was encouraging for some of you.

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Why Worry?


Worrying is something I’m good at. Call it a skill, if you will. Right now, much of my worry stems from school, such as if I’m doing well, or if I’ll be accepted into the nursing program I applied to, or if nursing is even what God intends for me to do with my life. If it isn’t, I will accept whatever is, but I worry that I’m wasting time on a career path He doesn’t intend me to follow through with.

I also worry about health. Mine, Kalen’s, our family’s health – I worry. I’ve already lost my father to poor health, almost 15 years ago. I worry so much about losing my Mom, or my stepfather Jack, who I consider my father now, considering I’ve known him longer than I knew my own Dad. I worry that something will happen to me at a young age, like it did with my Dad. He was only 41 when he died from a heart attack. His health was certainly lacking. I know I need to get healthy, but even being afraid of an early death, or worrying about what is happening to me, I find it hard to gather the motivation. Luckily, Kalen’s new job has a gym on site that he can use for free, 24/7, and I can join him as well, for free. So, once summer comes I’m going to try to get us to work out there, or at least him (I have an elliptical at home, but he dislikes those). With the wedding and school, it’s honestly hard to find time to get out there.

Another huge source of worry is money. To be fair, unless someone is a billionaire, money is likely a worry. I have to learn to trust in God to take care of me, of us. Right now, we are living rent-free with Kalen’s mother (only because we’re both in school; prior to this we were paying her rent), but we have expenses and bills. Kalen and I both have our fair share, but he’s just added our new cars to his list, and I added medical bills last month thanks to my fun little hospital stay, and of course I have my medicines that I purchase monthly (for the most part). So, we have our fair share of money going out. It’s scary to think that in an instant we could be without a source of income. We’ve both been there. Kalen worked at Borders previously, as a supervisor, and was with them until they closed. I left my job of 6 years to go work at another law firm, and once I caught up the job I’d been hired for, he fired me and never replaced me. Classy guy, that fella! Had those not happened though, neither of us would have begun going back to school, so I’m eternally grateful that we lost our jobs. We’re both far happier now too.

I worry though, that what we’re doing isn’t enough. I worry that I’m not putting in enough of an effort to better my relationship with the Lord. I worry that I’m not doing enough with the church. I worry that I’m not helping people enough.

The worrying constantly is stressful. I eat when I’m stressed, so I gain weight, and then I worry more about my health. It’s a terribly vicious cycle.

But, I’m learning to let go, and let God. I’m being faithful with my prayer journal. I’m writing out my thoughts, worries, and pleas. I’m sticking to my reading plan. I feel lighter, and happier.

I feel less worried.

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Drawing Nearer to God


Lately, my heart has been telling me I need to spend more time focusing on the Lord. Two years ago, I spent ninety days reading the Bible in its entirety. And then didn’t pick it up again. Admittedly, reading that much in that little amount of time was a big thing. Heck, I was proud of myself for sticking to it, AND for sticking to it while my Gma was sick, and through her death. If I missed a day, I’d make sure to read double the next. As you might imagine, a plan taking that short of time involved long readings daily, so double the reading was quite tedious and long, but well worth it, of course.


But I slacked off after that. I would read verses through the Bible app on my phone, randomly pick up a devotional book I have, and read verses others have posted. I just never picked up my Bible. There’s something about holding the Bible, isn’t there? Mine is highlighted, in a rainbow of colors (the highlighters are made for Bibles, and honestly I wish I’d stuck with one color for that reading plan, so I could then use a different color for a different plan should a new verse strike my fancy, but it’s too late now), and there’s just something I love about turning the pages.


I’ve also felt I haven’t been talking with God enough. I try. I’ll talk at night, but I usually end up falling asleep. I’ll talk during the day, but I’ll get distracted with life too easily. I always see various bloggers I follow talking about prayer journals. Journals are something I can get down with, because I love writing, and it’s honestly more like a diary than anything else, when you think about. So, I began a prayer journal. Right now it’s in a red notebook with seventy pages. And I love it so far. I.LOVE.IT. Honestly, I don’t know why I hadn’t done it sooner. It’s so freeing, to write out what I want to say to God. It isn’t just prayer requests, although those are in there, but rather me, talking, and thanking Him for my life. Because my life is pretty dang awesome.


I started a new reading plan for my Bible (this one is chronological and lasts a year, so no stressing out as I go through it), and I’m writing verses that I enjoy from that day’s reading at the bottom of the page of that day’s prayer page. Not  the entire verse written out, just Gen. 1:1 for example. That way I know what was read that day, and I can go through and see those verses if I wanted to.


I’m also a verse-highlighting addict. So, I got out a yellow seventy page journal and I’m writing out the verses that I love. This way, they are easier to access, and I won’t have to flip through all the pages of my Bible. The inside cover has John 14:27 written on it, because that is my favorite verse, and was my Confirmation verse as well, making it even more special than it already is.


Honestly, I’m excited for all of this. I feel like a weight has been lifted. I feel like I’m doing what I’m supposed to be doing; what God wants me to do. I’ve also been thinking of making some other changes, and praying about them, and those will be kept secret until I receive an answer regarding them. :)


These are some verses I wrote down in my Scripture Book that I thought I’d share with this post. They seemed fitting.

Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double minded. -James 4:8

Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. -Proverbs 3:5-6

Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord! -Psalm 27:14

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope. -Romans 15:13



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Shine through the gloom

Let me start out by saying that we’re in my favorite church season: Lent!!! I love this season, and it includes one of my favorite hymns, Abide with Me. It’s been one of my favorites for as long as I can remember. At our church, we’d dim the lights for the last verse and sing it while looking at the giant wooden cross  in the front.

Hold Thou Thy cross before my closing eyes;
Shine through the gloom and point me to the skies.
Heaven’s morning breaks, and earth’s vain shadows flee;
In life, in death, O Lord, abide with me.

I often sing this verse when taking a shower (but only if I’m home alone!), and in my head randomly throughout the day, throughout the year.

So, lots of happenings in these parts! Kalen and I spent last Friday afternoon test driving cars because we’re hopefully getting new ones this weekend! My sweet guy is buying me a car!!! ♥ During my time of unemployment and while going to school, I’ve been looking for a job. Lately not as much, because once I’m in nursing school it will be hard to work around that schedule, but I have kind of stepped up the looking in order to help make the payments. Our goal is to pay as much as we can now, since we’re not living on our own. We’ll also be leasing them, and saving money to pay off the balloon payment at the end. We’re aware a lease isn’t ideal, and I’ve had one before and been burned, but right now it is the best option for us. It will be really nice to have two functioning cars (his leaks oil, the back door won’t open from when his car was hit by a semi, if he rolls down his window it scratches thanks to the same accident, his windshield is all scratched up, and his door handle broke off; my car leaks antifreeze, is AWFUL on gas, and if it’s cold out the doors won’t shut so I can never open any aside from mine, and sometimes I have to hold that shut as I drive), and to not be pouring money into these cars that we currently have (which I recently did when the coil spring broke and annihilated my front tire, and this was something recalled on models before mine, but APPARENTLY it was fixed for my model…hmph). As I said, I’ve leased a car before, but this will be Kalen’s first brand new car, and he’s pretty excited. :)

In addition to trying to find a job to help out, I’ve decided that I’ll start washing the laundry. Our arrangement was he’d wash, and I’d fold and put away. If I get a job, it might go back to that (and I still might need him to carry the basket downstairs because sometimes it’s too heavy for me with my wrist being wonky), but it’s not like it’s hard to wash the clothes (the folding and putting away is what I dislike, but folding is NOT a skill Kalen possess and he cannot remember where my clothes go). Even though we’re not married (YET BUT SOON!!!!), and we don’t live in our own house, I see no reason why I shouldn’t act like a homemaker and keep our stuff neat and tidy, and make him happy. You might think it sounds old fashioned, but I being a homemaker is how I envision my future (in addition to working as a nurse), and that is mainly because I’m very particular about how things are done around here.

That’s about all for now. Right now I’m marathoning Roseanne…again, and trying to enjoy my spring break, which is hard thanks to a nasty cold. But, I’m alive!

ALSO!!! I think this will be my bouquet:

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I love the tulips and the baby’s breath. They just remind me so much of spring. I’m also going to make my own wedding jewelry because whatever I’m seeing that I like is something I can do myself, and is being sold for more than I want to spend on it. I’m frugal. ;)

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Between feeling really, REALLY sick at the beginning of the year, and still feeling sick occasionally now, blogging has taken a backseat in my life. School is more important, but just as equally time consuming is….*drumroll*….PLANNING MY WEDDING!!!!!

I think I mentioned Kalen was offered, and accepted, a new job while I was laying around hooked up to monitors and needles in the hospital. This new job offers health insurance. Did I mention I don’t have health insurance? So, we’ve been together almost 5 years and engaged for a little over 2. We were slow to plan because his previous jobs were both part time and we wouldn’t be able to afford a wedding. So, it was put off. But now, with the insurance being dangled in front of me like a worm on a hook, and with the new job, we decided it was time.

So the big day is April 26th of this year (yes, I am aware it’s fast!). The ceremony will be at my beautiful church, and it will be a traditional Lutheran service. The reception is at a nearby restaurant/hall. I hired a photographer who did my friend’s wedding, and my cousin’s future husband (they’re getting married this September) is going to DJ the reception. My cousin is going to do my hair, and I’ll do my own makeup. I purchased my dress Saturday, and it should be done with alterations by April 2nd. Kalen is going to wear black dress pants and an ivory shirt and tie. His best man, Shauna’s husband David, will wear black pants, an ivory shirt, and a marine tie (which is navy blue, but David’s Bridal calls it “marine”). Jack will wear the same thing. If we cannot find a tie to match, I think I’ll go with gray, yellow, or green. Ashley, my maid of honor, has a navy dress. The color scheme will be either navy, yellow, and gray, or navy, green, and gray.



Or, the navy, gray, and a pale pink. I don’t have an example of the scheme like the above, but I have some flowers.





So there’s that. I also have dress pictures!!! The first is one I tried on but wasn’t really an option I considered. The second was the one I was torn on, and the third is what I went with. And I love it. I fell more in love with it yesterday when I took it for alterations.





I’m really excited. I’ll finally get to marry the love of my life! It doesn’t seem real. We bought his wedding band, and got mine sized, and when we tried them on to make sure they fit, I was like “Whoa! Wedding bands!” haha. I feel incredibly lucky that things have gone so smoothly for us so far. I’m not planning on decorating the church, the reception venue has centerpieces already, and napkins, so I don’t have to worry about that. I’m using fake flowers (I don’t think sneezing through my vows would be a good time), and I have a few ideas for the favors. I really wanted to do a candy bar type thing, but I think that would be more costly and more of a hassle than its worth. So, I’m going to do Sixlets or something like that in favor bags. I saw a few cute bags/stickers on Etsy that I think I’ll go with. I’m not sure on jewelry yet, but I’ll figure it out. I’m also not sure on our first dance song. I think it’s be cool to dance to Lana del Ray’s version of “Once Upon a Dream” because Sleeping Beauty is my absolute favorite movie, but I’m not sure it would be a good idea. We’ll figure it out.

Tonight we have to get the invitations and get them out ASAP, and I am thinking I might get bubbles for after we leave the church, so they can blow them at us. :) We’ll see though (I’m not sure bubbles are allowed; rice and birdseed and flower petals are not). I have a meeting with the wedding coordinator on Wednesday, so I can find out more then. :)


Also, I saw this cake and I wish I could have. It would be like my Gma had a say in what was done. :(



That’s all, because homework is beckoning to me. Boo.

Beautiful Girls

I love makeup. I don’t know about you, but going to stores like Ulta or Sephora, or shopping online at places like bh cosmetics makes me happy. Of course, Kalen is baffled by such things, but aren’t most guys?

What’s funny about my love of all things beauty is that I almost never do my hair or makeup. However, I own more than enough to last me a lifetime. I can’t help it though! I have more eye shadow palettes than I know what to do with, more lip products than I’ll ever use, mainly because my lips are so dry and gross all the time, and enough concealer/powder/foundation to cover my body 100 times over. It’s a sickness, and don’t even get me started on nail polish!

But, I love makeup and I always will. So I thought I’d take my creepy, obsessive love and share my stuff with you! I’m not claiming to be an expert on beauty products, and I’m definitely not an expert photographer, but I like seeing what people own in terms of makeup. I might swatch, I might just take pictures with the caps off, it will all depend on the products.

So, this is my little warning. Be on the lookout for makeup related posts with pictures and possibly reviews of some of the products too. Because, who doesn’t like reviews!?

I don’t know when you can expect these, as I just got home from the hospital Thursday evening, and have been trying to catch up with school and life in general, but they will be coming.